Kabir says, "What is the point if you don't give up pride!" and Guru Arjan says, "Without renouncing ego, how can one be a renunciate?"
Sanyasa - Achieving the pinnacle of human experience
Guru Gobind Singh's shabad Re Man Aiso Kar Sanyasa is a beautiful crystallization of some of the deepest wisdom from oneness principles extolled by Indian sages for millennia. Every word and phrase can be used for meditation and for digging deeper. Through this shabad, Guru Gobind Singh gives the same message as Guru Nanak in Japji Sahib, and the same message Shri Krishna gave Arjun in Bhagwad Gita. The highest spirituality and the deepest self is not found by searching in the wilderness; it is found by perfecting one's mind. The one who win's their own mind, conquers the world.
SHABAD, TRANSLITERATION AND ALTERNATIVE TRANSLATION
ਰਾਗ ਰਾਮਕਲੀ ਪਾਤਸਾਹੀ ੧੦ ॥ Raaga Raamkalee Paatasaahee 10 ॥ RAMKALI OF THE TENTH KING
ਰੇ ਮਨ ਐਸੋ ਕਰਿ ਸੰਨਿਆਸਾ ॥ Re Man Aaiso Kari Saanniaasaa ॥ O mind ! the asceticism be practised in this way :
ਬਨ ਸੇ ਸਦਨ ਸਬੈ ਕਰ ਸਮਝਹੁ ਮਨ ਹੀ ਮਾਹਿ ਉਦਾਸਾ ॥੧॥ ਰਹਾਉ ॥ Ban Se Sadan Sabai Kar Samajhahu Man Hee Maahi Audaasaa ॥1॥ Rahaau ॥ Consider your house as the forest and remain unattached within yourself…..Pause.
ਜਤ ਕੀ ਜਟਾ ਜੋਗ ਕੋ ਮਜਨੁ ਨੇਮ ਕੇ ਨਖੁਨ ਬਢਾਓ ॥ Jata Kee Jattaa Joga Ko Majanu Nema Ke Nakhuna Badhaao ॥ Consider continence as the matted hair, Yoga as the ablution and daily observances as your nails,
ਗਿਆਨ ਗੁਰੂ ਆਤਮ ਉਪਦੇਸਹੁ ਨਾਮ ਬਿਭੂਤ ਲਗਾਓ ॥੧॥ Giaan Guroo Aatama Aupadesahu Naam Bibhoota Lagaao ॥1॥ Consider the knowledge as the preceptor giving lessons to you and apply the Name of the Lord as ashes.1.
ਅਲਪ ਅਹਾਰ ਸੁਲਪ ਸੀ ਨਿੰਦ੍ਰਾ ਦਯਾ ਛਿਮਾ ਤਨ ਪ੍ਰੀਤਿ ॥ Alapa Ahaara Sulapa See Niaandaraa Dayaa Chhimaa Tan Pareeti ॥ Eat less and sleep less, cherish mercy and forgiveness
ਸੀਲ ਸੰਤੋਖ ਸਦਾ ਨਿਰਬਾਹਿਬੋ ਹ੍ਵੈਬੋ ਤ੍ਰਿਗੁਣ ਅਤੀਤ ॥੨॥ Seela Saantokh Sadaa Nribaahibo Havaibo Triguna Ateet ॥2॥ Practise gentleness and contentment and remain free from three modes.2.
ਕਾਮ ਕ੍ਰੋਧ ਹੰਕਾਰ ਲੋਭ ਹਠ ਮੋਹ ਨ ਮਨ ਮੋ ਲਯਾਵੈ ॥ Kaam Karodha Haankaara Lobha Hattha Moha Na Man Mo Layaavai ॥ Keep your mind unattached from lust, anger, greed, insistence and infatuation,
ਤਬ ਹੀ ਆਤਮ ਤਤ ਕੋ ਦਰਸੈ ਪਰਮ ਪੁਰਖ ਕਹ ਪਾਵੈ ॥੩॥੧॥ Taba Hee Aatama Tata Ko Darsai Parma Purkh Kaha Paavai ॥3॥1॥ Then you will visualize the supreme essence and realize the supreme Purusha. 3.1.
BACKGROUND - SHABAD HAZARE
This shabad comes from the Shabad Hazare. Shabad Hazare include ten religious hymns composed by Guru Gobind Singh which are present in Dasam Granth. Some scholar link hazare word to Persian Hijr means separation which linked as the shabads separates us from Maya where it is also believed to be come from word Haazra (means present) i.e. word of Haazar Hazoor. These hymns are primarily composed in Braj and Hindi languages, with plentiful use of sanskritic words. Like the Guru Granth Sahib, these hymns subscribe to the oneness direction of the mool mantra; they inspire a revolution of the mind and they are against idolatory and meaningless ritual practices.
MAIN CONCEPT - TRUE SANYAAS AND UDAASI
Historial concept of Sanyaas:
Sannyasa is a form of asceticism, is marked by renunciation of material desires and prejudices, represented by a state of disinterest and detachment from material life, and has the purpose of spending one's life in peaceful, love-inspired, simple spiritual life. Sanyasis can be called renunciates or ascetics. Sannyasa (saṃnyāsa) is the life stage of renunciation within the Hindu philosophy of four age-based life stages known as ashramas, with the first three being brahmacharya (bachelor student), Grihastha (householder) and Vanaprastha (forest dweller, retired). An individual in Sanyasa is known as a Sannyasi (male) or Sannyasini (female) in Hinduism, which in many ways parallel to the Sadhu and Sadhvi traditions of Jain monasticism, the bhikkhus and bhikkhunis of Buddhism and the monk and nun traditions of Christianity, respectively. In Sikhism, there is no ascetism; in the highest state of the individual is Brahmgyani. For someone who does this early in life, there are two options: Grihastha or Sanyaas. Gurbani combines the two and shows a path where Sanyaas can be achieved within grihastha. A more practical way of living a life.
Sanyas Happens Even Now:
Renunciation - even now people renunciate. They give up their lives and go on traveling trips. In fact some of their stories are published in books. Eat Pray Love is a book about this. Another example is Walden's Pond. Those who do these experiments come back rejuvinated. Hemingway's granddaughter who writes Wild is the most recent example of a popular work about Sanyasa.
Sanyaas and Udaas
Sam-ni-aas - having not desire: all together having no desires. Sa - Ni - aas - literally "with no hope" Sun - aas: being in zero-ness as Sant Singh Maskeen explains.
Ud-aas - Udar Aaas - Hope from inside, Hope in inside
While Sanyaas is a noun, Udaas is normally a verb. So someone can be in Sanyaas, and someone is udaas.
Guru Nanak's travels are called udaasis - According to Bhai Gurdaas - Babe Bhekh Banaya Udaasi ki reet chalaayi Chadheya sodhan Dharat Lukai
But the Udaasi of Gursikh is within Maaya - Gursikh Jogi Jaagde Maaya Andar Karan Udaasi
Everybody is a forest. You want to get lost in a forest and attain peace and silence in a forest. But that can be done in every body. In every house silence can be achieved. What is Sadan. It is Ghar. Happiness is attained through winning your mind.
Let the Guru's word be the mundra of the mind. Mundras were worn in the ear to straighten the mind.
Man Jeetai Jagjeet
Sochai Soch Na Hovai Chupai Chup Na Hovai Bhukheyaan Bhukh Sahes Seyaanapaan lakh Kiv Sacheyara hoyieh Hukam rajai chalnaa
It is not necessary to starve the body. It is only necessary to control your mind. The best renunciation, is the sacrifice through the mind. The renunciation of K, K, L, M, A:
Tyaagna Tyaagan Neeka, Kaam Krodh Lobh Moh Tyaagna
GIVING UP: Kaam Krodha Hankaar Lobh Hatth Moh Na Man Mo Layaavai
What should we really give up.
When the light of the lord enters your mind, you remember his Name and you forget those things that burn you: lust, anger, and greed. This is the exercise of conquering your mind. In Raag Maru, Guru Arjan Dev ji says:
Raja Bhartri on Greed भोगा न भुक्ता वयमेव भुक्ताः, तपो न तप्तं वयमेव तप्ताः । कालो न यातो वयमेव याताः तृष्णा न जीर्णा वयमेव जीर्णाः ॥
Pleasures weren't consumed, only we were; penance weren't 'done'; only we were 'done'; Time didn't pass, only we passed; thirst was not 'over', only we got 'over'.
HOW TO SEE GOD: Tab hi aatam tat ko darse.
Aatam Tat is "Spiritual Essence." The promise is that with Simran God is seen here and now.
Simran is important - if we can embrace the virtues of acceptance, compassion, kindness, love, forgiveness. and if we can cast out the
Raam Naam Ur Meh Gayo, Jaa Kai Sam Nahi Koy Jis Simrat Sab Dukh Mitai, Daras Tuharo Hoye
OBTAINING THE ULTIMATE: Param Purakh Kaha Paavai - Going beyond three gunas
Sanyasa is about achieving the pinnacle of human experience. And the pinnacle of human experience is to rise above the thieves of the mind. It is to go beyond the three gunas and become one with God.
The three gunas are thought to come originally from the Sankhya philosophy (one of six houses of Indian philosophy). Sankhya is a dualistic philosophy that believes in the coexistent and interdependent realities, conscious Purusha and unconscious Prakrti. Purusha is ever pure, wise and free but it becomes a subject of pain and pleasure when it identifies itself with Prakrti. Prakrti is the material cause of the universe and is composed of three gunas – sattva, rajas and tamas that correspond to light, activity and inertia respectively. The state in which the gunas are in equilibrium is called Prakrti but when disturbed the state is called Vikrti. Disturbance of the equilibrium of Prakrti produces the material world, including the mind, which is supposed to be the finest form of material energy.
The universe -- or brahmand -- is made of five elements. This universe maybe called prakriti of the Sankhya philosophy. It is really the same as Maya. However, there is a sixth element, the truth, also called paarbrahma, what Guru Gobind Singh calls aatam tatva or the Soul Element. While all the 5 Maya elements are driven by a combination of one of the three gunas (satva, rajas and tamas), the Soul element is beyond the three gunas. This is the state of being one with God.
Guru Arjan on this (For more read 16th ashtapadi of Sukhmani):
ਸਲੋਕੁ ॥
सलोकु ॥
Salok.
Shalok:
ਰੂਪੁ ਨ ਰੇਖ ਨ ਰੰਗੁ ਕਿਛੁ ਤ੍ਰਿਹੁ ਗੁਣ ਤੇ ਪ੍ਰਭ ਭਿੰਨ ॥
रूपु न रेख न रंगु किछु त्रिहु गुण ते प्रभ भिंन ॥
Rūp na rekẖ na rang kicẖẖ ṯarihu guṇ ṯe parabẖ bẖinn.
He has no form, no shape, no color; God is beyond the three qualities.
ਤਿਸਹਿ ਬੁਝਾਏ ਨਾਨਕਾ ਜਿਸੁ ਹੋਵੈ ਸੁਪ੍ਰਸੰਨ ॥੧॥
तिसहि बुझाए नानका जिसु होवै सुप्रसंन ॥१॥
Ŧisėh bujẖā▫e nānkā jis hovai suparsan. ||1||
They alone understand Him, O Nanak, with whom He is pleased. ||1||
Guru Arjan goes on in Ashtapadi 16 of Sukhmani sahib to explain, exactly how Guru Gobind did, how it is in the end the desires of the mind that need to be controlled.
Shri Krishna on this:
This is from the fourteenth chapter of the Bhagwad Gita. In the Bhagavad Gita, Arjuna asks Krishna how he can recognize the man who has gone beyond the three gunas, and what has he done to have gone beyond them? Krishna replies by listing the characteristics of such a person and by reiterating the central theme in the Gita: non-attachment to the fruits of one's labor:
Whatever quality arises –
Light, activity, delusion –
He neither dislikes its presence
Nor desires it when it is not there.
He who is unattached,
who is not disturbed by the gunas,
who is firmly rooted and knows
that only the gunas are acting
who is equally self-contained
in pain or pleasure, in happiness
or sorrow, who is content
with whatever happens, who sees
dirt, rocks, and gold as equal,
who is unperturbed amid praise
or blame of himself, indifferent,
to honor and to disgrace,
serene in success and failure,
impartial to friend and foe,
unattached to action – that man
has gone beyond the three gunas.
He who faithfully serves me
with the yoga of devotion, going
beyond the three gunas, is ready
to attain the ultimate freedom.
Bhagavad Gita, A New Translation, 14.22 – 26
(Translation by Stephen Mitchell, 2000)
Specifically:
नान्यं गुणेभ्य: कर्तारं यदा द्रष्टानुपश्यति |
गुणेभ्यश्च परं वेत्ति मद्भावं सोऽधिगच्छति ||
"When wise persons see that in all works there are no agents of action other than the three guṇas, and they know me to be transcendental to these guṇas, they attain my divine nature."
śhubha aśhubha phalaiḥ—from good and bad results; evam—thus; mokṣhyase—you shall be freed; karma—work; bandhanaiḥ—from the bondage; sanyāsa-yoga—renunciation of selfishness; yukta-ātmā—having the mind attached to Me; vimuktaḥ—liberated; mām—to Me; upaiṣhyasi—you shall reach
Translation
BG 9.28: By dedicating all your works to Me, you will be freed from the bondage of good and bad results. With your mind attached to Me through renunciation, you will be liberated and will reach Me.
Commentary -
Every action has defects, just as fire is covered by smoke. When we walk on the earth, we unknowingly kill millions of tiny living entities. In our occupational duties, no matter how careful we are in the fulfillment of our duties, we still end up harming the environment and hurting others. Even if we eat a cup of yogurt, we still incur the sin of destroying the living entities that reside in it. Some religious sects try to reduce this involuntary killing by tying a cloth over their mouth. Even this does not fully eliminate the destruction of living entities in our breath.
When we perform our actions with the intention of fulfilling our self-interest, we are culpable for the sins we commit, knowingly or unknowingly. In accordance with the law of karma, we have to reap their karmic reactions. Good works can also be binding because they oblige the soul to go to the celestial abodes to enjoy their results. Thus, both bad and good karmas result in the continuity of the cycle of birth and death. However, in this verse, Shree Krishna gives a simple solution for destroying all karmic reactions of work. He uses the word sanyās yog, meaning renunciation of selfishness. He says that when we dedicate our actions for the pleasure of the Lord, we are freed from the fetters of both good and bad results.
Those who establish themselves in such consciousness are called yog yuktātmā (united in consciousness with God). Such yogis become jīvan mukt (liberated in consciousness) even in this body. And, upon leaving their mortal frame, they receive a divine body and eternal service in the divine Abode of God.
Mary Oliver on Sanyasa
I have decided to find myself a home in the mountains, somewhere high up where one learns to live peacefully in the cold and the silence. It’s said that in such a place certain revelations may be discovered. That what the spirit reaches for may be eventually felt, if not exactly understood. Slowly, no doubt. I’m not talking about a vacation.
Of course, at the same time I mean to stay exactly where I am.
Are you following me?
Guru Nanak in Raag Shri
To get a broader perspective on Guru Gobind's shabad, it is truly worth reading the following Guru Nanak shabad in Raag Shri. The concepts of controlling desires (aas), residing within (antar), wisdom and understanding self (gyaan and antar ki gat), eliminating ego (haumai hoye vinaas), the detached mind rests in its house (man bairagi ghar vasai), meeting the lord by subduing the mind (man maar mil).
ਸਿਰੀਰਾਗੁ ਮਹਲਾ ੧ ॥
Siree Raag, First Mehl:
ਮਰਣੈ ਕੀ ਚਿੰਤਾ ਨਹੀ ਜੀਵਣ ਕੀ ਨਹੀ ਆਸ ॥
I have no anxiety about dying, and no hope of living.
ਤੂ ਸਰਬ ਜੀਆ ਪ੍ਰਤਿਪਾਲਹੀ ਲੇਖੈ ਸਾਸ ਗਿਰਾਸ ॥
You are the Cherisher of all beings; You keep the account of our breaths and morsels of food.
ਅੰਤਰਿ ਗੁਰਮੁਖਿ ਤੂ ਵਸਹਿ ਜਿਉ ਭਾਵੈ ਤਿਉ ਨਿਰਜਾਸਿ ॥੧॥
You abide within the Gurmukh. As it pleases You, You decide our allotment. ||1||
ਜੀਅਰੇ ਰਾਮ ਜਪਤ ਮਨੁ ਮਾਨੁ ॥
O my soul, chant the Name of the Lord; the mind will be pleased and appeased.
ਅੰਤਰਿ ਲਾਗੀ ਜਲਿ ਬੁਝੀ ਪਾਇਆ ਗੁਰਮੁਖਿ ਗਿਆਨੁ ॥੧॥ ਰਹਾਉ ॥
The raging fire within is extinguished; the Gurmukh obtains spiritual wisdom. ||1||Pause||
ਅੰਤਰ ਕੀ ਗਤਿ ਜਾਣੀਐ ਗੁਰ ਮਿਲੀਐ ਸੰਕ ਉਤਾਰਿ ॥
Know the state of your inner being; meet with the Guru and get rid of your skepticism.
ਮੁਇਆ ਜਿਤੁ ਘਰਿ ਜਾਈਐ ਤਿਤੁ ਜੀਵਦਿਆ ਮਰੁ ਮਾਰਿ ॥
To reach your True Home after you die, you must conquer death while you are still alive.
ਅਨਹਦ ਸਬਦਿ ਸੁਹਾਵਣੇ ਪਾਈਐ ਗੁਰ ਵੀਚਾਰਿ ॥੨॥
The beautiful, Unstruck Sound of the Shabad is obtained, contemplating the Guru. ||2||
ਅਨਹਦ ਬਾਣੀ ਪਾਈਐ ਤਹ ਹਉਮੈ ਹੋਇ ਬਿਨਾਸੁ ॥
The Unstruck Melody of Gurbani is obtained, and egotism is eliminated.
ਸਤਗੁਰੁ ਸੇਵੇ ਆਪਣਾ ਹਉ ਸਦ ਕੁਰਬਾਣੈ ਤਾਸੁ ॥
I am forever a sacrifice to those who serve their True Guru.
ਖੜਿ ਦਰਗਹ ਪੈਨਾਈਐ ਮੁਖਿ ਹਰਿ ਨਾਮ ਨਿਵਾਸੁ ॥੩॥
They are dressed in robes of honor in the Court of the Lord; the Name of the Lord is on their lips. ||3||
ਜਹ ਦੇਖਾ ਤਹ ਰਵਿ ਰਹੇ ਸਿਵ ਸਕਤੀ ਕਾ ਮੇਲੁ ॥
Wherever I look, I see the Lord pervading there, in the union of Shiva and Shakti, of consciousness and matter.
ਤ੍ਰਿਹੁ ਗੁਣ ਬੰਧੀ ਦੇਹੁਰੀ ਜੋ ਆਇਆ ਜਗਿ ਸੋ ਖੇਲੁ ॥
The three qualities hold the body in bondage; whoever comes into the world is subject to their play.
ਵਿਜੋਗੀ ਦੁਖਿ ਵਿਛੁੜੇ ਮਨਮੁਖਿ ਲਹਹਿ ਨ ਮੇਲੁ ॥੪॥
Those who separate themselves from the Lord wander lost in misery. The self-willed manmukhs do not attain union with Him. ||4||
ਮਨੁ ਬੈਰਾਗੀ ਘਰਿ ਵਸੈ ਸਚ ਭੈ ਰਾਤਾ ਹੋਇ ॥
If the mind becomes balanced and detached, and comes to dwell in its own true home, imbued with the Fear of God,
ਗਿਆਨ ਮਹਾਰਸੁ ਭੋਗਵੈ ਬਾਹੁੜਿ ਭੂਖ ਨ ਹੋਇ ॥
then it enjoys the essence of supreme spiritual wisdom; it shall never feel hunger again.
ਨਾਨਕ ਇਹੁ ਮਨੁ ਮਾਰਿ ਮਿਲੁ ਭੀ ਫਿਰਿ ਦੁਖੁ ਨ ਹੋਇ ॥੫॥੧੮॥
O Nanak, conquer and subdue this mind; meet with the Lord, and you shall never again suffer in pain. ||5||18||
This is what Dalai Lama said in an interview on sex (Full Inter`view) and being a monk. My comments are below.
You spoke about the wife of the French president being beautiful. But Dalai Lamas don’t marry. So do you miss sex?
No, I don’t miss sex. Not only Buddhist monks don’t marry, Catholic monks don’t too. And many Indians.
How then do they satisfy their physical urges and feelings?
Sexual pressure, sexual desire is short period satisfaction. But often, it leaves more complications. One of my friends, a Canadian, was a Buddhist monk, but after some time, he disrobed. Now he complains about so much sexual pressure, that’s he’s virtually trapped (laughs). Obviously, due to sexual pressure, people marry,soon after, they divorce. Again, they marry, and may divorce again. Divorce in a marriage which has produced children is terrible. In marriage, there is short period of sexual satisfaction, but there are many ups and downs. Monks or nuns have been trained to master their desires, and there is much less ups and downs. Monks, nuns, naturally as human beings have desires for sex, it is biological. But then, those who marry always have trouble, and in some cases it leads to murder or suicide. So, that is the consolation. We miss something, but at the same time, we live better lives. More independence, more freedom.
In marriage, if you live together, happy, and get old, there is the issue of who goes first, who dies first. Human attachment to your children and partner. And it becomes an obstacle to peace of mind. Whether right or wrong, we monks think that way. What do you think? You should join the monkhood (long laughter).
The attachments bring trap. Whether it is to a person, to substances or whatever, it is a trap. Monks are detached. One of the practices in all major religions is detachment. Don’t have too much attachment, and you’ll be contented. You have it in Catholicism, Islam, Buddhism, Hinduism, all major religions. You should be contented. Wealth, money, friend, family, contentment is best. It’s the key to peace of mind. Some of my friends are billionaires, but their minds is on more, more money. Contentment means some kind of personal check, but it doesn’t mean we no longer have desire. But attachment and desire should be separate. Without desire, then life is meaningless. Desire for good, for more service to others, desire for more benefit to others. That makes your life more meaningful. Without desire, then you’re a robot. No further progress. Genuine desire, with reasons, with logic, that’s proper desire.
Anger also can be two types. One anger comes spontaneously. That’s okay. But the anger that says this person is my enemy, I have to hit back, that is bad and is based on ignorance, lack of holistic view. If you behave well to your enemy, practice forgiveness, and reach out in all sincerity, one day the enemy and you may become best of friends. We should not close that possibility.
My take on this
The positive aspect to highlight here is that in Buddhism, attaining the status of a Bodhisattva is an achievable goal for anyone. This stands in stark contrast to Western religions like Islam and Christianity, where aspiring to become figures like Jesus Christ or Prophet Muhammad is unattainable, as they are regarded as divinely chosen and forever superior to their followers. Buddhism takes a different approach, with Buddha himself encouraging his disciples to critically examine his teachings.
If one were to embrace Buddhism and aim for the highest spiritual rank, that of a Bodhisattva, it becomes evident that achieving this level necessitates progressing through the ranks of monkhood. Complete renunciation of familial ties, including abstaining from sexual relationships, is seen as a prerequisite on this path.
The argument against marriage, often linked to the rising divorce rates, may be challenging to grasp. It can be likened to the idea of abandoning eating and breathing due to the existence of foodborne and airborne pathogens. Monks appear to have reservations not just about marriage but also about the act of sex itself. This is noteworthy because sex is the very activity that propagates the human race, although it might not align with their ideals.
The philosophy of Buddhism strongly advocates renunciation, compelling individuals to let go of their past, relinquish their aspirations, and detach from family and sexual life. This is akin to someone driving away from their past, attempting to forget their loved ones, and falling in love with the journey itself, as poetically depicted in Tony Hoagland's poem Perpetual Motion.
The path of a Buddhist monk, characterized by the detachment from family, raises questions about their capacity to love strangers when they don't accept their own family members as loved ones. It is advisable for Buddhist monks to reintegrate into the broader human community. If everyone were to adopt monkhood, humanity would cease to exist within a single generation for obvious reasons. The emphasis on renouncing sex as a fundamental principle in a modern context begs for critical examination of Buddha's teachings. It is perhaps time to embrace a more conventional way of life, acknowledging and embracing the natural attachments that connect us as humans, fostering a sense of realism and optimism.
As I think about this, I listen to Guru Gobind Singh's advice on renunciation:
Perpetual Motion
Tony Hoagland
In a little while I’ll be drifting up an on-ramp,
sipping coffee from a styrofoam container,
checking my gas gauge with one eye
and twisting the dial of the radio
with the fingers of my third hand,
Looking for a station I can steer to Saturn on.
It seems I have the traveling disease
again, an outbreak of that virus
celebrated by the cracked lips
of a thousand blues musicians—song
about a rooster and a traintrack,
a sunrise and a jug of cherry cherry wine.
It's the kind of perceptual confusion
that makes your loved ones into strangers,
that makes a highway look like a woman
with air conditioned arms. With a
bottomless cup of coffee for a mouth
and jewelry shaped like pay phone booths
dripping from her ears.
In a little while the radio will
almost have me convinced
that I am doing something romantic,
something to do with “freedom” and “becoming”
instead of fright and flight into
an anonymity so deep
it has no bottom,
only signs to tell you what direction
you are falling in: CHEYENNE, SEATTLE,
WICHITA, DETROIT—Do you hear me,
do you feel me moving through?
With my foot upon the gas,
between the future and the past,
I am here—
here where the desire to vanish
is stronger than the desire to appear.
My Take:
The narrator of the poem is going to start on a car journey. He wants to go very far -- he says he wants to go to Saturn. Perhaps he just wants to escape his life, his now. He just wants to go. It's a feeling that he has no control over. It's like a disease he has contracted. Perhaps he is inflicted by pessimism, because it is an outbreak that is celebrated by so many blues musicians.
He is so pessimistic that loved ones have become strangers. Thats an interesting point because we often hear about how optimism -- the walt whitman kind of optimism -- the optimism that can convert strangers into friends. Pessimism converts loved ones into strangers -- another clue that thats what has happened to the narrator.
He tries to escape his life, his friends, his loved ones, his now. And instead befriends the highway. A new path. A renunciation, a sanyasa. This new path looks enticing, sexy -- like a girl with comfortable, air-conditioned arms. Phone booths which can be used to call his friends now appear like jewelry -- present not for the sake of connecting with the old loved ones, but as show pieces merely present to decorate the new enticements.
The radio helps in the escape. The songs playing give the false feeling that the narrator is not running from life, but being free. Doing something romantic -- something connected with love and passion. The narrator is moving.
The last few lines are beautiful:
Do you hear me,
do you feel me moving through?
With my foot upon the gas,
between the future and the past,
I am here—
here where the desire to vanish
is stronger than the desire to appear.
But instead of rushing into activity, the narrator is trying to escape activity. Escape the future and the past, and all the people he knows -- all he wants is the highway.
This character of Tony Hoagland's poem, "Perpetual Motion" talks about how he, disgusted by his life and loved ones, sets off on a journey, a perpetual journey to nowhere. The only love in his life is the highway. He loves the path and forgets everything else. He is moving between the past and his future, and despite being in the now, he is obviously diseased by pessimism.
It creates a beautiful picture, and it is metaphor worth digging into: perpetual motion of the mind into nothingness. Perhaps, when one is unhappy with life, one thinks of giving up everything to be happier.
But are you happier really by renunciation? I doubt it. That is like shutting your eyes and assuming no one can see you. If you shut down your eyes, if you forget your past, and you don't dream of your future, it does not change where you are. I am not sure one has to renounce their past, future, friends and family to be in this perpetual motion. His desire is to vanish is really a desire to relinquish his ego - to disappear. And the title confirms that this motion -- this desire to move away from the past and future -- to here. And there is a perpetual motion needed for this. Sort of a constant reminder as in Guru Arjan's Saas Saas, every breath. It is perpetual motion into the desire to disappear.
So my reading of this poem is metaphorical. It is not really a real trip. It is a perpetual motion of the mind into a state of the present, even if it seems like it is unattainable like Saturn. And then it makes a lot more sense. There is peace and pleasure in acceptance. As Guru Gobind Singh says in Re Man Aiso Kar Sanyasa, the true renunciation is of the mind. True peace is in accepting.
The true spiritual pathway is inclusive of all. It includes a path, a highway. But it also includes loved ones. It's not about the blues of life. It's about a celebration. A colorful celebration. The purpose of life is to sing.